I guess I when you are hurt by someone and you choose to forget and forgive, it's like a huge weight is lifted from your shoulders. Everything is brand new. I still remember, but it doesn't hurt as much. When someone tells you that you are a complete failure and an embarrassment to their good name, it hurts. But I took it and admitted that I must have done something wrong, in their point of view. I know things will still be hard trusting won't come as easy as it did before, and I know that my guards will be up to the skies, but eventually, even those will come down too. When I think about it too much the pain comes flooding back. But then I take a deep breath and forget again. And believe me I am no saint and forgetting is hard for a quizzer who spends their time memorizing facts, to be able to pop them out on the drop of a key word. But I guess I figure that the brain space will be better used if I let go.
Right now I am reading Laurie Alice Eakes' "Lady of the Mist" one of the best new Christian books of the year! At least I love it!
Since nobody reads this. I guess I could say anything and nobody would hear me scream (theorioretically). But I reserve that right.
Over and out!